I'm Leaving This Blank
Wednesday, April 6, 2011I have this morbid feeling within me. at 12:57 AM
I'm leaving for Hongkong in TWO(2) days!
But I dun feel excited AT ALL.
Ever since ah ma left us, ever since ye ye left us,
I feel so attached to my family. SO ATTACHED.
I dun feel like going out often. I miss my parents, I miss everyone at home.
I feel homesick even though I'm within Singapore.
ITS really bad.
Have never told anyone about this because I feel silly about feeling this way.
Losing someone so important to me in my life caused such a huge impact on me.
I have never shown this side of me to anyone. Its like ppl may think that I'm so over my grandma's death that I'm fine, but the actual fact is, I feel so hurt deep inside :'(
Even typing this post can make me feel so depressed that I could cry my balls out.
:'( what is happening to me?
I dont know.
I miss ah ma so much. Looking at her pictures makes me even more sad.
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